Prologue: You'll never be an artist -- How old are you? -- Leaving my former life -- Getting there -- So much to learn -- Familiar artists, new ways -- Illustration versus the context of art -- Transcription -- Look like an artist -- Drawing -- I could not draw my mother dying -- A bad decision -- Euphoria -- Grief -- Peers -- Crit -- Art school + history history -- You'll never be an artist -- Discovery -- MFA thesis -- And now? -- Newark artist -- Art history by Nell Painter -- Coda: Happy ending.
Summary
A Princeton University historian describes her post-retirement decision to study art, a venture that compelled her to find relevance in the undervalued masters she loves, the obstacles faced by women artists, and the challenges of balancing art and life