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"An intimate and important memoir of deconstructing and reconstructing faith after abuse ... a spiritual memoir that does not shy away from abuse, queerness, or the multifaceted character of God." - Kirkus Reviews (starred review) . A courageous, vulnerable, and spellbinding memoir that explores with visceral impact what happens when harm starts at home - and is exalted as God's will. For readers of Unfollow and Jesus Land: Jamie Marich explores spiritual abuse, intergenerational trauma, and weaponized faith. At nine years old, Jamie Marich asked God to end it all.. Doing it herself would be an irrevocable sin: an affront to the church and her father's God. She prayed instead for the rapture, an accident, a passive death - anything to stop the turmoil of feeling wrong: wrong in her body; wrong in her desires; wrong in her faith in a merciful God that could love her wholly as she was.